A year shorter

Last year, it was "how is it like to be 17?"

Seriously,I couldn't answer that since people was asking that question in like the first second of me being 17. Like I would feel any difference within me in one second.

Well not, after living my 17th year, being seventeen was like having a new freedom. It's not like you can watch adult-rated movies in the cinema or something but, it's like having your mind opened, by people. You could literally absorb anything and being vulnerable to everything. I'd had doubts on my own principles and wanting to get some freedom of what I wanted to do, and never wanted to be pressured to do anything. I wanted to try new things in life, saw people and be fascinated by them. And I wanted to be rebellious, not like doing drugs or getting my nose pierced or anything but I wanted to defy rules and see where my defiance would take me.

But of course you couldn't get anything you want. And yet, God seemed to have a better plan on my 17th year. Maybe, I wasn't all that rebellious but I was rebellious enough it costed my grades. But I experienced new things and seeing something from a different perspective. I learned something important, underneath of all that from what I did and it's enough for me. My 17th year was full of friendship, hard work and solidarity, which I wasn't expected to get. I got in in  a circle which I thought I wasn't belong to. I meet new people, whom I think I wouldn't know if I hadn't got in this unfamiliar territory. It was not as roller-coaster-ride as how people described on motion pictures, but I guess God defined roller-coaster-ride differently to me. And I was grateful I survived all that. I should say that being 17 have its own perks.

And since today, the question is, "what is it like to be 18?"  

Pink Floyd Madness

Why are your songs in your playlist was from 30-years ago?

My friend asked me that in my post-school course and I remember not knowing how to answer. Then I  suddenly remember few days back, when i was so amazed by the pulse concert. Then my thought flew to 6th grade, when i was desperately trying to record both Happiest Days of Our Lives and Another Brick in the Wall Part II to my cellphone, which was impossible. Then I remember how Pink Floyd's songs are the  only thing I hear after getting bored of pop songs. I always come back listening to Pink Floyd because they've simply been there the rest of my life.


But it is, indeed, a heavy kinds of song. You have to replay the song over and over again to understand why Echoes takes 16:30 minutes. Or why On the Run was created. Or why The Great Gig in the Sky only consists of agonizing, melodious screams. Or the time when Any Colour You Like makes sense. But once you've get it, you simply can't brush them off.

Maybe it's because Pink Floyd appeared in the greatest moments of music, where there was tons of good bands and songs are created, where one simply creates a "whole" music, not just simply add raps into the song to improvise. Where musicality and what the song means matters. Or maybe it's because it's the band that I've known all of my life. So letting go of Pink Floyd is like letting go of your past. I don't know. Or i'm just simply too depressed. Or maybe there was something wrong with me, getting amazed by a bunch of grandpas, or should I say, amazing grandpas, who have these huge amount of musicality. Or, maybe I am just plain crazy, thinking that middle-aged David Gilmour was hot in the concert.

You're upset because you were born too late, don't you?


I am not upset. I am happy and content of my life right now. Yes, maybe I am upset because I can't see them live, since David said that there will be no concert to the death of Richard Wright. Or getting mesmerized by the lighting in P.U.L.S.E concert and how the tempo of the lightning is exactly matched the songs' tempo, especially when they performed Learning to Fly, and I can't see the fake flying plane, which was explode in the concert, or seeing the faked pig balloons. Or seeing the eye-shaped stage, and seeing them rocking without a second of screaming and jumping around the stage, and being crazy on stage.

But I think knowing their songs and getting addicted by them is enough. Knowing such amazing grandpas are enough. Because I think I wouldn't stand the amount of craziness over them that I would have. For I am worst than my mom.

Learning to Fly

 David Gilmour!

Bonus: Young David Gilmour! hehe

Future Concerns

You'll be the most fitted in Architecture

You know what? Why are you so confused? You know your passion. Why don't you just go for it?

What? an Architect? Don't be an Architect. The job's limited here and its not interesting.

Don't choose that. You're not that kind of person

I think you should choose med school. You like to see medical stuff don't you?

Why not environmental engineering? There are a lot of future there

Why not try law? The career's promising and you don't always have to be a lawyer.

You've heard enough of us. What can we heard from you?

I have chosen. The path is unknown. It's not exactly my comfort zone, but then i feel that there are lots of expectations from me. Am i willing to gamble? Am i brave enough? Am i capable? Can I give the best of me there? 

What would you choose, working in a field that you don't like or not working at all? 

Well, it's best to do the best to try than not trying at all isn't it? Than not working at all?

Your choice indicates you're willing to try even if it's not your favorite things to do. And i think you're capable. And the judging you've made? Look at the people that have chose the path. Do they always talk bull? That's just the media. Look at your cousins who chose the path. They aren't like that, are they?

But i'm scared.What if i'm not capable? What if i'm not good enough? What if i ended in a place that i want to be?

Believe me, you're more than you think. I've met lots of people from the path you have the most doubt, and i think you're not one of the worst. I've seen the worst. You'll be taught to do things their way. You'll learn. And if you ended in a place you don't want to be, well, it's your life. It's up to you if you're going to give up your path that you've chosen or you're going to work your ass off there. 

The only thing that holds you back is yourself, try not to look down of yourself so much, since you're the most flexible person I've ever met. And you're not in the bottom, so I think you are in a good position. You can do it, you like those things do you? 

You know what? What did you think when you signed up for the student council? Did you know what you're going to do there? Do you familiar with their way of life? Don't be so judging. Things are better that what they actually shows. And if the starts are bad, Isn't your score not so good when you started high school? People need time to adjust, and things got better eventually.

Can't they just see how big this decision is?