Sweet Distraction

Hello guys, it's me again

Anyway, finals were already over for a week, and that means, the summer holiday has come. Major yay.
During finals, which stretch up into 3 weeks, luckily, filled with national holidays every several days,  which gave us moments to be able to breath-after stayed up on the previous night until like, 3 a.m in  the morning.

Seriously, on finals, i fell asleep to the sound of chuckling chicken, which is the sign that the sun has started to rise. While i'd have to get up in like, the next 3 hours for the exam.

Anyway, this posts is not about me ranting about how my life was during the finals, but, what I had done to postpone studying. Anyway, here they are
Things that I had done to keep myself out of studying.

1. Check my cellphone every several minutes(still normal)
2. Chatting to my friends and scrolling on 9gag, twitter, etc(normal)
3. Doodling(pretty much normal, depending on what I doodle)
4. Looking at the table, and see if it's tidy enough. If it isn't, I'd tidy it first(acceptable?)
5. Scribbling some random words, quotes, or sentences(okay)
6. Solving random mathematical problems(I'm studying Law, what was I doing?)
7. After all things mentioned in point 1-6 are done, when still don't want to study, or still "distracted", look for any dirty clothing. If there is any(there is always any), wash it.(dafuq are you doing.....)

What? Is washing my dirty clothing a bad escapade from studying? pft.

The Ballad of being a Freshman

Hello

I always finds new things interesting. New faces, hesitation, hellos and what-is-your-names, the feeling of guessing which-one-is-that-name-? getting lost in new buildings, and looking at, ah, "interesting" seniors, and not to mention, the weird feeling of not knowing what to say to a person.

It is thrilling, to be a part of the minority. But alas, being me, I crawled my way to the crowd. New faces, new perspective, new person altogether. All this are overwhelming. I'm like a thin sponge, desperately trying to absorb as much water as I can.

But accompanied by experiencing all those glitz and glams, I can't help but to feel like a dust.

Being a person who experience difficulties with adapting in new places, to be new in every environment is a little bit scary. Exchanging names and new faces, new peer groups formed God knows when since we've been here just for about two months and I am still amaze with the way that I can withstand all this. It's not that I'm that bad in adapting into new places but I don't like to feel that silence awkwardness since I am not that good in socializing, as I am not exactly an extrovert who always know the right thing to be said every single time. I always feel that it isn't exactly pretty when you're sitting with someone that you supposedly know, and another people talks like they've known forever, yet when I'm sitting with them there was a sheer awkwardness.

Else? Of course I already have close friends--I'm not as bad as you think that I would be! But still no boyfriends--as always. Speaking of boyfriends, how exactly people find themselves boyfriends--or girlfriends? How can people get a new ones so fast? Does it like, you meet someone, then what? bombarding them with questions? How do people exactly flirt with other people?  

Anyway, there are no reason for me to be cynical toward this new life. Well anyone wouldn't complain getting home at 2 p.m top when you can sleep until 7 a.m. I didn't even remember how I survived high school's hectic schedule with piles and piles of tasks. I remember going to school at 6.30 a.m then arrived at home at 8 p.m, plus homeworks and such.

Speaking of high school life, everytime I see people wearing those white and grey-a.k.a high school uniform, I still feel like I am still in highschool. Like my very soul are left there. Being here is still a dream, in which I am afraid to be awaken.  

For those who are wondering how I am right now and the reason why I suddenly begin writing in my blog, which is probably already full of spiderwebs and dusts, I am fine, I am happy, and I am alright. Mid tests are over, which means my coffee-budget are no longer needed. But I am also fed up. These past weeks had been crazy. Mid tests had been crazy. Tasks had been crazy. Papers are hundreds of times crazier. And the weird thing is, I had become too accustomed in writing more than 10 paged papers from scratch, no wikipedia, just me, my brain, my finger, and my laptop. And several literature as references,which was really hard for me then. Now, I, too still have a group paper that needs to be done. This has been a really good escapade, by the way. Well I guess I am pretty good at this, escaping. 

Day 29-- A Letter to Yourself in 10 Years

Uhm, hello

What is it like in 2023? Are there still elephants? Giraffes? Tigers? Can you still breath the clean air in the morning? Are there still clean water? Can you hear the birds chirp in the morning? Or the sound of frogs at night? How's the house that I've been living at for 18 years? Do you still play the piano? How's your Clair de Lune?

How's my college life? Do I make it alright? Can I prove to myself that I am good enough to be here? Do I meet someone special to me when I was in college? Do anyone love me and confessed his love or do I meet my first love here? Do I graduate with a good score? 

Sorry for bothering you with all this questions. I can't help but to wonder what my future would be like. Whether I meet someone. If my child is a boy or a girl, and wondering how they would look. Do they look like their dad or me? What kind of person my husband might be. Whether I've been making the right choice or not. Or where I will work and whether I enjoy it or not. 

So, do you enjoy your life? I, being a first timer in this so called "dorm", is happy in the current time. Although the cute boy, whose mom is the dorm keeper, seems to always bother us and asking us to play with him. I guess he is a kind of lonely, whether he realizes it or not. A child with no brother or sister usually is. Well, maybe he like the presence of someone whom he could play with. I remember the time my older cousin spend the night in my house. I keep telling her to play with me until it's like, 10 pm. I realize that she got a big dose of patience in her.

Anyway, remember to always make time for your child. Don't overwork yourself. Learn to cook like Jamie Oliver, if you remember who he is. Love everyone, and don't judge anyone. Listen to other people, and don't say the word "don't do that" unless you give the explanation why, and don't break your child's opinion, and respond to it nicely. Play dress up with your daughter, and read to your children every night. Do everything with passion. Dress up nicely, and be nice to everyone. On top of it all, always be the best version of you all the time. 

P.S Do you think that I'll be married and have a child in 28?

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Hello

            It's been a while since my last posting, isn't it? i didn't post anything last december(when it was holiday), and its holiday already. Again. Which i have loads to write here, especially from my last holiday. But honestly, i want to write here last holiday, but since i spent it on China, and i want to write as soon as i got there, i couldn't connect to Blogger.I think its banned there or something? i dont know-_- And i was there for 13 days, and as soon i got on school i got this pile of assignments already. And, right now, in the moment i write this post, i'm on my 3-weeks holiday. And i didn't go anywhere. Even to my mom in China. So, i'm bored to death and this is like, the fourth day of holiday. So, i guess i'm back to the world of blogging.

See ya!