Awww :3

Toothless Figure!

I just got this today. Very cute. Absolutely adorable. I mean, look at those eyes! Look at it!

Anyway I am so grateful, speechless and shaken-to the point where I can't meh and pft anymore-because whoa you're actually doing this. I mean, who would've thought that someone would spend some amount of money and go to such trouble in filling the address form(since my address is THAT complicated) for someone you hardly knew-at least physically, since we haven't even met. So thank you. Infinite thank you. 

Looking at my old posts, well it seems to me that you change a lot of my beliefs and all. and I'm not sure where this ride is taking me. It's kind of twisted, I trust you while I'm not giving myself completely. and that scares me.

Sweet Distraction

Hello guys, it's me again

Anyway, finals were already over for a week, and that means, the summer holiday has come. Major yay.
During finals, which stretch up into 3 weeks, luckily, filled with national holidays every several days,  which gave us moments to be able to breath-after stayed up on the previous night until like, 3 a.m in  the morning.

Seriously, on finals, i fell asleep to the sound of chuckling chicken, which is the sign that the sun has started to rise. While i'd have to get up in like, the next 3 hours for the exam.

Anyway, this posts is not about me ranting about how my life was during the finals, but, what I had done to postpone studying. Anyway, here they are
Things that I had done to keep myself out of studying.

1. Check my cellphone every several minutes(still normal)
2. Chatting to my friends and scrolling on 9gag, twitter, etc(normal)
3. Doodling(pretty much normal, depending on what I doodle)
4. Looking at the table, and see if it's tidy enough. If it isn't, I'd tidy it first(acceptable?)
5. Scribbling some random words, quotes, or sentences(okay)
6. Solving random mathematical problems(I'm studying Law, what was I doing?)
7. After all things mentioned in point 1-6 are done, when still don't want to study, or still "distracted", look for any dirty clothing. If there is any(there is always any), wash it.(dafuq are you doing.....)

What? Is washing my dirty clothing a bad escapade from studying? pft.

Rainy thoughts

"Because, darling, there is simply nothing more painful than rejection and abandonment." 

"Maybe this is what I can do best, you know, brushing people away from me"

"It's possible that people is being nice to other people--not because they're actually nice--but because they know how it actually feels to be treated badly" 

Recognition

Are we all..starving for recognition of some sorts?

To be known for your traits

To be known for what you've done

To be known by someone dear

To be known for your ablilities

To be known for your work

To be known for your achievements

All lies on the inner layer, concealed by selflessness since no one can deny the simplest pleasure of knowing that someone-if not people, recognize you. That it feels good to feel proud and to make someone else proud because of it, no matter how small it is. 

Because everyone is fascinated in everything, and somehow, we want to make at least one person, to be fascinated by something within us--or us to be recognized at. 

I feel like a legitimate fool. It is said that "human should never be like a donkey, that falls into the very same trap twice". 

Well apparently, in this exact moment, I am the donkey. 

See? Better not to get your hopes up, then. Regardless of that, give it a shot to anything that appears now. It might turns up into something better. 

I don't get people who always fuss and complains about having no one to spend your weekend with, I mean the way someone have a relationship would. Like, I know that you're single but I have been single for 18 years aka all my life and I am happy with the way I am, which is with spending my weekends with tv shows and internet connection. 

Sincerely, me, who almost having no one to spend my weekends with except my family, movies, games and the internet and feels like nothing but content.