Day 11-- A Letter to Someone You've Judged from the First Impression

Hey

I have no means to judge. I am simply scared of you. I am scared of what you might think. I am scared of what you'd say. Silly, since you're not a green eyed monster that sleeps under my bed. Yes, you  joke around, Yes, you're easy when you're with them, but no matter how I tried, I can't reach you. I have to reach  you since we're on the same road. I can relate to someone that I knew from the social media better than you, which was weird. I usually relate better in person to people.  But somehow, You're my special case.  I don't know, but since that day, You change my views in you. I didn't remember what you did or say, but I couldn't act normally. I couldn't act freely or normally around you. When you're around, I feel like meeting my parents after I've done something unforgivable. Intimidated, my brain shrunk into the size of pea and my mouth refuse to form any coherent words. So, I just do something that I best. Walking away, instead facing the real problem.

I know that you have a good heart, together with a sharp tongue. I admire it, since I need both of them and I feel like I have only one of them max, which I'm not going to tell you which one, since I'm obvious. To have just a pinch of what I lacked of, is what I dreamed to be. Some say that my confidence issues are on the way, but I think I was raised in a different way than you are. I care too much of what other people might think of my action. But you're so sure of what you think is right. I'm not jealous of you, but I respected you so much I'm scared. It sounds silly, but it is the truth.

But to see that everyone was like you, I think that it  is God's plan to make me make a peace to someone like you. I met one of them, and I realize that there's still a lot of people worse than you, in a good way. Honestly, I can't find any flaws in you since everyone loves you and respects you. But to put it that way, means that I don't know you that much, which is true. But that have to change sooner or later, isn't it?

I mean, 4 year is a long time, and I still hope that I can make a good friend with you, if not a friend. I know that we sometimes have to be put in an unfamiliar circumstances in order to grow. I'm not comfortable around people like you. So I hope that I can be more than I am right now, If God helps me.

From someone who shares your name